next year starts with goodbye

Heipsan! Tää on varmaankin vika kerta kun mä tänne kirjottelen ainaki vuoteen. En voi uskoa että lähtö on oikeesti niin lähellä. Enää 17 tuntia niin istutaan Tuan kaa jo koneessa matkalla maailmalle! Ja siinä 17 tunnissa pitäisi vielä pakata, siivota, ostaa tuliaiset, ostaa muut tarvittavat asiat mitä tarviin tonne mukaan, ettii kaikki tärkeät ja tarpeelliset paperit sun muut, nukkua omassa sängyssä vikaa kertaa vuoteen ja sanoa perheelle ja kavereille heippa vuodeks. Pienenmoinen paniikki iskee, tai on oikeastaan iskenyt jo. Ja mä senku vaa dataan yökkäri päällä mun huoneessa. Jos pystyisin oikeesti tajuamaan että lähtö on noin lähellä ja oon niin pitkään poissa niin ehkä saisin kaiken tehtyä ja vähän ripeämmin, mutta ei, emmä tajuu. Äiti ja mummi itkee täällä ja mä en tunne mitään. Ääääääääää!

Mutta niin, tälläseen paniikkikohtaukseen on varmasti hyvä lopettaa haha. Tänne on ollu kiva kirjotella kaikkee, vaikka en tiiä onks kukaan oikeastaan lueskellu mun höpötyksiä täällä vai oonko pitäny vaan jonkinmoista monologia (aika perus).

Anyways, mä kiitän ja kuittaan, heipparallaa!

viimenen yö omas sängys

Today is my last whole night in my own bed, own home, in the city I know and love. How did time go by this fast? Where did all the days go? Today I was shopping some of the last stuff I need, turns out I need a lot of stuff... I should've started packing, and I actually have some stuff brought together but all my clothes are still in my closet. After writing this I swear I'm gonna start packing!
I should've gone to school today, but I cried so much last night that in the morning I couldn't open my eyes. I saw my little cousin, we said our goodbyes and both started crying. I hung out with Meri for quite a while, we went to Kippo and ate some really good froyo. Now it's raining like crazy and I wish it would just stop. But it really doesn't matter, it's +35°C in Gainesville so hello sunshine!
Tomorrow I'm getting the last of my grades from school because I need them for the states. I'm gonna be hanging out with my friends and packing the last of my stuff and probably I'm gonna cry a lot. Veera, Sara and Meri are supposed to come sleep over but let's see how that's going to go. Now I can only realize the fact that my time in Finland is less than the trip takes from here to my host family. Don't know what to say about that.

let's have a toast for the assholes

I've had such an amazing weekend. Kanye West was so sick that I have no words to describe him. The feelings that I felt during his performance were amazing. Some guy left this stool for me and Veera, so almost the whole time we stood up on it so that we could see over everyone else, and we saw the whole stage. It was so cool. I fell in love with Twin Shadow, and my love for Jamie Woon grew. James Blake was the best possible ending for flow, he was amazing. But now it's all over and school starts tomorrow. I don't have to go, but I want to see all my friends, so I'm going there just to hang out. 

I've had a great summer, and it's gone by sooo fast that I still don't understand that it has come to its end. This has been by far the best summer in my life. I've done so much in such a short time, I've made memories I'll never forget and become friends with the best people in the world. I've fallen in love with Helsinki more and more and I now know how to appreciate the good things in my life. A whole new world opens to me in 9 days, and I still can't believe I'm leaving Finland for almost a year. But I know how to make the best of it, and I most certainly will. Now I just hope I'll get to see all my loved ones before I leave.